At the risk of jeopardizing my disability status, let me say once and for all, “I am not suicidal!” Perhaps it is a limitation of the English language that we can inadvertently become the adjectives used to describe our behavior and feelings. So let me be clear: I have attempted suicide. I have thought a lot about suicide. I still think about committing suicide far more often than I like to admit. But I am not suicidal.
I am just Ashley. Long before I began my struggles with suicidality, I was, and hopefully long after, I will be, just Ashley. And, Ashley, if you care to get to know (or remember) him, is a pretty cool guy … .
